Still alive and Chapter 51 update.

I'm actually making headway on Chapter 51. Just wanted you to know I'm still alive, still writing, and I have not given up on finishing Love, Blood and Tears.  Don't believe me? Here's a ROUGH DRAFT brief preview of a scene in Chapter 51 (referring to Garrus):

He stared lifelessly at the ship's guns... unable to move, barely able to breathe. His only reason for breathing at all was to relive all the memories made in that room with Shepard. He struggled with letting her go; allowing himself to properly grieve. The woman he loved, the woman who had entangled herself into every fiber of his being... she was gone. 

She is gone... he kept repeating in his mind. It felt like half of his soul, half of everything he was, had been viciously ripped out of him. The pain was unbearable and no matter how many times he repeated the words in his mind, he couldn't accept it. He had even refused the crew's request to add Shepard's name to the memorial wall. He felt completely lost and without purpose; no plan, no next move to make.  "There's no Vakarian without Shepard," he whispered to himself.

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So if you were curious what Chapter 51 would entail.... it's Garrus. Sad tortured Garrus. It also focuses on the Normandy crew and where they go from there. We won't revisit what happened on Earth until Chapter 52.

I should have more time to wrap up Chapter 51 in the next couple of days! I haven't touched base with my editor in FOREVER! So if I'm unable to have it edited, an unedited Chapter 51 will be posted!

Thank you for hanging in there and being ever so patient with me!!